“We’re all going to die, all of us, what a circus! That alone should make us love each other but it doesn’t. We are terrorized and flattened by trivialities, we are eaten up by nothing.”
– Charles Bukowski
Today is my dad’s birthday. I miss him. Right down to the bone marrow, I miss him.
And sometimes I don’t even want to live anymore either.
But not because I miss him so much. That would just be weak.
Rather because, the lifeblood flowing through our society’s veins is commerce when it should be kindness. And sometimes that heaviness is just too much for me to bear.
Especially since we all share the same destiny.
But here I shall stay because, well, there’s much work to be done.
And by “work” I mean: sensing beauty when I can and more importantly, adding beauty when I can.
Maybe you will consider the same.
If I had access to a time machine, and could only use it once, I know exactly where I’d go.
A few years back, sitting on the couch with my dad, listening to Pat Matheny through his huge speakers at unsafe decibels (as if we were in that old Maxell commercial), looking at each other and smiling as children do.
We’d sit there until my mom yelled at us.
And then we’d sit there a little longer.
With that, tomorrow is Father’s Day.
My dad left me a few years ago and those speakers washed away in the hurricane.
And here I sit in Starbucks, listening to Pat Metheny for old time’s sake, and thinking – what’s the point of it all?
But I knew the answer before I asked.
The point is, further.
Keep moving further.
Because I know deeply, down to the depth of my neurons, more moments that will turn to monumental memories are on their way.
So, I’ll keep my head up.
And keep moving further.
I owe that to him. And to myself.
(This is a chapter to a new book I’m writing which I may or may not finish – thanks so much for trading your time to read it – PLEASE share it with your friends)
“In Live Like a Fruit Fly, Gabe Berman shares his recipe for living a more joyful, worthwhile, and abundant life in every way. A witty, entertaining, and insightful read.” — Deepak Chopra, Author, The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success